it's my first official day in college at the University of Wisconsin-Madison!!
this is so crazy.
1st, my beautiful queens zahkia, sachika, and aisha took marta all the way to the airport,
my queens,
i was leaving them for the first time.
i don't think they realize how much i love them,
i appreciate them so much.
2nd, i take the plane from Atlanta to Chi-town,
it was so nerve-racking,
not flying but knowing that i'm leaving this beautiful georgia peach for my dreams in a home i've never been to,
fuck dude,
like I'm here,
this shit is real. pray for me, i need all the light and good vibes i can get.
im so scared,
hopeful
praying
blessed.
UW-MADISON, First Wave has been such a family! they're such a comfort zone, i love them already.
K.O. 9, It's lit.
i'm doing this for my parents,
i'm doing this for me,
i'm making it for us.
let's get it.

Everything is changing. I've been thinking about where I was two years ago and just a year ago. The people I thought would be here forever are no longer around. The same people I thought I couldn't live without don't wonder if I still take a breath. All I can say is that right now, I am not myself, and that I am looking for myself again but I am still living, I am still breathing, maybe a little deeper but I am still here. There isn't much to say but, life goes on.

...my 18th birthday is tomorrow. It seemed so far away when I was 12 and didn't have a care in the world.
Sometimes I wish I was young again,
Sometimes I wish I wasn't broken,
Sometimes I wish I didn't cry as often as I do now,
But I am thankful that God has stayed when no one else has,
I will appreciate myself, my love, my God.